Oh my goodness. Been totally forever since I last posted here! I hate it, I've lacked completely since then and want to get back on track! My life changed like a complete 180 degree since I last posted!

I moved out with my boyfriend instead. My best friend had ditched me pretty much last minute -just because her boyfriend broke up with her- & moved across Canada. That was great. I was left hanging on the excitment to move out and packed boxes so I finally gave in to move out with my new boyfriend of like 2 weeks since it'd be cheaper & I wouldn't be alone. I promise you, it worked out great! We're onto our 3months living together and 4months together and I love it! We get along just perfectly fine and I honestly feel more at home here than I ever did at my parents.

Therefore my life is all dandy and great beside the fact I've been lacking my body some attention. Let's put it this way, moving out = having to make meals and cooking.. I'm not TOO much of a fan of either so we keep eating out and recently I can't take it anymore. I KNOW it got to stop, seriously. I prob put on 10pounds since.... The good news is that I have my boyfriend to help me! He refuse to go get lunch or dinner out anymore and tells me when I want to munch on something to get something healthy and that popcorn and pop ISNT a healthy choice, haha. On the next step too, I've gotten him to agree to hit the gym with me!! :) He wants to get back in shape too (he honestly doesnt look that bad..still a hottie to me) but then I'll also have someone to be with and a spotter!

I really want to try bloggn here again or perhaps will try Sparkpeople since bloggn did help me in past.. till I got too distracted with my life being so busy! I also got a fulltime job and intraining to be Kennel Manager for a pet store so it's huge and busy! lol

If I do blogg here still I'll create a new username.. haha. Will for sure share when I make up my mind heh. :)

Hope you all have been doing great in the past few months! <3

GOAL: fucking sexy beach bodies when summer 2009 hits!
(yeah, I am sick of dreaming of how I want to look like, I am GONNA DO IT & enjoy it!)

I guess all it took was to have one of my best guy friend tell me I am fat. Ouch. ESPECIALLY coming from him, who is always quiet with his opinions most of the time and I never thought I'd hear such thing come out of him about me.

I'm sure he's pissed at me for having sex with my boyfriend.. {the whole sex before marriage deal} but the hell to act like an asshole to me and notice that I don't react to it so you have to go and stick it in my face I'm fat? You're just fucking pissed I got a boyfriend and that I had sex and you prob wished you had me instead. Bitch.. whatever I guess it was just that extra push I needed again to avoid eating junkfood and overeating agian.. YOUR GONNA SEE ME AT MY RIGHT WEIGHT AND WISH YOU NEVER CALLED ME FAT. I hate you so much right now. I feel horrible too, oh hello, Im fat, whats new.

sheesh.

Guess I lost myself again, oops. Been eating like complete shit for the past three weeks now and yet I am STILL 159.. I have no idea how to explain this.. I guess I should just feel glad I didn't gain from all the junkfood I've been eating.

Life is still up and down.. up today tho! =]

Plus it's my 19th birthday this Thurs, whoohoo, despite the fact I work.. eh.